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I don't think I really want to know how things will play out, what with you living so far away, I have money to come and see you, I could easily earn it back in a month or two, but my problem is is that there seems to be something wrong, because I know how much we want to see each other, but in my eyes this seems like an impossible mission.

We have ceased all contact, I try to speak to you, but you either choose to ignore me, or maybe you've forgotten about me, either way, it upsets me to know that we were close friends at some point, and yes, I may not know your circumstances and I may never find out why or how, but I really want to speak to you again, hear your voice one more time, hear you chuckle and laugh with me over pointless conversations.

I miss it. I really do…I miss you.

 

Goodbye.

I'm feeling better, but not enough to feel happy.
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Always busy, someday's I sit alone and think to myself. Is there anything worth doing today? Only to reach the same conclusion each time.  No. And then I will ask myself another question as I am left in solitude. Why do I exist? Again, another good question, but unfortunately I cannot reach deep enough inside myself and find the answer, nor can I create the answer from actions. I turn the page on my book and read quietly, as to not break anyone from their concentration. What would it be like if I wasn't alive? The very same question creeps into the back of my brain each day, almost every living second seems pointless, even now as I am writing this. I think of the question. What would it be like if I wasn't alive? I honestly want to know, but I do not. It is impossible to find out. For I was birthed and have lived on this Earth for seventeen years. And for the moment I think that those seventeen years have wasted on me. And they have. I could have been something better than what I am. But I decided not to be. Instead I painfully crawled along the floor, taking life's misery and anguish, driving myself off a cliff of hatred and into a pit of loneliness and unforgivable torment. Should I just end it all? Point a gun to my head and pull the trigger? No. Because physically I am exhausted of hate and pain, so my mental strength is what I have left to rely on, which overall is not much. There is not really a lot inside of my brain, I have little imagination, little happiness, a lot of pain, but most of all I have the nothingness, the blank thoughts, the day dreams, the zone outs. Blank thoughts. Blank thoughts. Blank. Thoughts. Thoughts...that is all this has been. A lot of crammed up thoughts in the back of my brain. I almost feel happy.
I ain't feeling too well, mostly depression, so I won't be answering any comments or giving out "Thanks" for a little while.
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2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and create five new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this" You legitimately have to tag 10 people.

Five things about me...
1: I have GREEN eyes, not BROWN!
2: I personally think I am short, despite being 5"9'
3: I have a lot of trust issues.
4: I don't really have 'face to face' friends.
5: I am lonely and depressed most of the time.

The five questions they asked me:
1: If you were to choose to go to the future or the past, which would you go to?

The past, always the past, the future is a scary concept.

2: What was the stupidest thing you've ever done?

Lie. 

3: What's your favourite anime series/movie?

The Warriors, it's my favourite because it is simple.

4: If your friend turned into a zombie, would you save them, kill them, or join them as a zombie?

Kill them, it seems honourable in a sense.

5: What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?

If this question was "What is the weirdest thing you've drank?" it would be a different story. But, I don't know, a quaver crisp BQQ sandwich with a side order of fried egg.

The five questions I'm asking are:

1) Who do you trust most?
2) What have to struggled with most in your life currently?
3) What are the chance I will read this?
4) Why are you the spawn of your parents?
5) Why is it you are living at this current moment in time?

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KillerfishSG Featured By Owner 16 hours ago  Student Artist
Thanks for the watch!La la la la 
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Thanks for the fav!:-)
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Brumencourt Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the favourite o/
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Thanks men!!!!
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Zogalote Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav! :3
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wingman2699 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :heart: :dummy:
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Thanks for the favorite!
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wingman2699 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :heart: :dummy:
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MistressKami Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thankies for the fave.
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You're welcome! :heart:
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